Episode 31

Thoughtful Living: Harnessing The Power Of Mind-Body Harmony, Resilience, And Regret-Free Existence With Dr. Cody Golman

In this 31st episode of Mindful You Alan interviews Dr. Cody Golman. Dr. Golman was once an army tank commander and has transitioned into a healer, entrepreneur, and esteemed national lecturer. Alan and Golman speak about how your thoughts influence the conition of your mental, physical and emotional well-being. We must learn to respond rather than to react. We all go through the pain of thinking that you cant do anything to help yourself but we need to know that positivity and negativity are a complete fantasy. Listen in to this captivating episode and learn how to harness your mind-body resilience and regret-free existence.

About The Guest:

Once an Army tank commander, Dr. Golman has transitioned into a healer, entrepreneur, and esteemed national lecturer.

Having established one of Denver's largest healing centers, Dr. Golman has now taken his expertise and successfully transitioned into the world of quantum life coaching and weight loss. His latest venture, the FAST 40 weight loss company, has helped thousands of individuals shed unwanted fat without resorting to drugs or surgeries.

Driven by a deep desire to inspire and empower others, Dr. Golman is on a mission to help people unlock their full potential, starting with creating a healthy boy. His goal is to ignite a spark within as many individuals as possible, encouraging them to live life to the fullest.

Find Dr. Golman Here:

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Youtube

About Alan:

Alan Carroll is an Educational Psychologist who specializes in Transpersonal Psychology. He founded Alan Carroll & Associates 30 years ago and before that, he was a Senior Sales Training Consultant for 10 years at Digital Equipment Corporation. He has dedicated his life in search of mindfulness tools that can be used by everyone (young and old) to transform their ability to speak at a professional level, as well as, to reduce the psychological suffering caused by the misidentification with our ego and reconnect to the vast transcendent dimension of consciousness that lies just on the other side of the thoughts we think and in between the words we speak.

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Transcript
Alan Carroll:

Hello, everybody. And welcome back to this episode

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of the mindful you podcast. My name is Alan Carroll. And I'm

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happy to host the podcast with you as we journey down the path

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of mindfulness and we get to meet people who share their

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stories and their adventures as they travel down that, that life

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path. Today's guest Dr. Cody, Goldmann, chiropractor, seeker,

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teacher, healer, who has experienced radical, physical

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mental transformations in his life. stories that are

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miraculous. Cody has touched the space of the miraculous. And his

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stories are inspiring. And his wisdom is like a powerful,

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LIGHT, shining, to illuminate the darkness and bring the love

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and the joy and the compassion that you get when you have a non

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judgmental mindful perception. So it's exciting to be able to

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share with you, Dr. Cody Goleman. And please welcome him

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to the mindful U podcast. Welcome Dr. Cody to the mindful

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U podcast. What a pleasure to have you with us today. Oh,

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thank

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Dr. Cody Golman: you for having me. It's really my pleasure. I

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appreciate that the time and space in your life.

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Well, you're you have an interesting story to

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tell and an interesting background to share with us,

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which leads you into this space we call mindfulness. So just

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likes to have you share a little bit of your background and and

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your journey so far until today.

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Sure, sure. I'll I'll condense because I'd probably

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like many of you in the listeners have had a lot of life

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experience in a very short period of time. But to summarize

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this, I was at 17, I joined the military. And that was before

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you could join before you could actually you can't actually go

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to the military at 17. I was still in high school back then

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you could. So I joined. And by the age of 19. I was a tank

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commander. And I was very eager at you know 17 1819. And I found

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you know, that was my first real experience with people. There

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was a lot of different races, religions, cultures. And so I

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got a lot of people skills right off the bat very early. And my I

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was in a in a big howitzer tank, the bullets are about 100 pounds

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apiece. And the bullet hole is not the technical term, but it

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was above my head for about a foot above my head. You can

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shoot three bullets a minute. So I was the bullet kid throwing

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these bullets over my head and long story short, I started

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having numbness and tingling and headaches and all kinds of

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stuff, right? And I knew nothing about how I like everyone else.

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I went to the doctor and when I was headed in runny nose, I got

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a pill and I got the flu shot and got all these things. And so

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I started going to a neurologist who checked me out and he said

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nothing's wrong with you, but my hand was numb. And so I went to

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the cardiovascular specialist and did the treadmill stress

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test and that was fine, nothing wrong. Meanwhile, over the

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course of 3456 months, I'm starting to lose strength in my

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hand, and I can't lift these bullets anymore. And so it's

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becoming quite a big problem. I also start having major

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headaches and you know had had As much since I was 12, that

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just started getting worse. So I go to multiple specialists, and

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they couldn't find they basically all said, nothing's

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wrong with you and we go on, that doesn't make any sense. Now

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a few of them gave me some prescriptions, which was my

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first kind of inkling to like, you know, where I'm going with

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this. And I thought, well, that's weird. Why, if you don't

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know what's going on, why would you get a prescription? You

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know, just again, I was a little stupid when it comes to health.

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So I didn't know what was going on. Sure. So eventually go to

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the specialist, my mom said, Hey, your grandfather was a

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world war two pilot, and he went to see a chiropractor. And I

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said, I want to see a real doctor. I'm not sure what to say

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when I was quacks. And but after you see enough real doctors who

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really don't help you, you decide to go do some other

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stuff. So I went to finally reluctantly see a chiropractor.

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And the guy said, Hey, I've done some X rays. And he showed me

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you got a pinched nerve in your neck. And I said, Well, that's

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that can't be the case. I saw a neurologist. And he said, well,

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a neurologist wasn't looking for this. And I said, I don't

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understand. He said, Well, you're, you're the specialist.

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You saw, were checking your body parts. They weren't checking the

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connection to the body parts. And they said, well, that are

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you kidding me right now? It's that same must be joking. So he

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said, Well, let me do an adjustment with you did

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adjustment which removed pressure off the nerve in my

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neck? In literally one second? At a lightning bolt?

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Electricity, energy shoot down my hand and feeling came back?

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In? Right. Yeah, there you go. Right. So so there you go. So

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that's, that's what I experienced. Now. I'm, I'm 19 at

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the time, and I go, What in the hell just happened, I was

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shocked feeling came back. And he started explaining the

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principles to me. Now I say this story, because this is where

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this is the initiation of of understanding universal

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principles, and the application to the mind and body. And, you

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know, he said, let's work with you a few more times, he

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explained to me that my brain has an intelligence inside. And

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it's running from my brain to the through my spinal cord out

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to my organs. And there was pressure on those nerves, so the

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intelligence wasn't getting through to my hand. And little

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did I find I found out later, about three months later, after

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working with this guy, my heart palpitations, and asthma

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completely cleared up. Since I was 12. completely cleared up.

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Now, at the time, I was also going to the University of New

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Orleans, and it opened up an anatomy book. And if you guys

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look this up, there's something called the marriage chart. It

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was it was created back in the 70s. It's a medical chart that

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shows the connection between your brain and your spine, your

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spinal nerves, and your organs. And lo and behold, I found that

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the nerve that controls our hand, also controls our hearts.

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But you don't have pain fibers in your heart. So this is

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something that's really important. 80 to 90% of our

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body, and 80 to 90% of our body, we don't feel you will never

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feel ever. Thank God. Can you imagine? Right? Can you imagine

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if you felt 60,000 miles of arteries and veins of

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circulating blood and oxygen to your tissues?

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You can't imagine that right? I got enough things

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to think about. I mean, think about me,

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too. Me too. Exactly. So I point to these things.

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Because listen, I've spent the last 20 years, passionately

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educating people on the power of the mind and body, and not from

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a a big grandiose idea, but from an actual scientific

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perspective. And I found when people truly understand how

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their body works, it equals freedom, freedom from what I am

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calling the enslavement of our healthcare system. Now, it's not

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all bad. So maybe it's a strong word. But when we understand

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that you've got an intelligence that's circulating 60,000 miles

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of arteries and veins, it's turning your food into your

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cells and tissues. It's, it's rebuilding your skeletal

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structure, every seven years, you have a brand new skeletal

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system, every 24 to 48 hours, you have a brand new stomach

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lining, every 120 days, your red blood cells rebuild, so I can go

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on with this. But the point being is, that's pretty damn

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cool. And whatever he's doing that knows way more than I do.

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So that whole journey at that moment, I realized when that

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that electric shock came down, and all of a sudden I started

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looking up in this in these textbooks. I said, You know

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what, I'm gonna become a chiropractor. I want to help

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people truly heal. I also said, what if I would have listened to

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the doctors who gave me a pill? Right without a prescription?

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Right? Yeah, it's just, and then I started, yeah, had these

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cognitive flashes that showed me at 40 years old and 50 and 60

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and 70, the result of suppressing symptoms with some

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kind of pill or whatever. What would that do in the long run?

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And that's when I started realizing, oh my gosh, we're not

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looking for causes. So there's a principle of course of cause and

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effect. But what I found was that symptoms are mainly affects

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your body is not a cause. The body has never been a cause the

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body is an effect. It's a loudspeaker of you and the

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interaction of you and whatever intelligence you believe in. So

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well, kind of weaving all that together. When I, the first day

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in chiropractic school, the very first day in chiropractic

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school, I think it was 22 or 23. At the time, we had to do an

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introduction of ourselves, I stood up, and everyone kind of

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introduced themselves and I stood up and I was kind of a, I

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would say, I was cocky, big ego. And I loved to entertain, you

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know, I was pretty full of myself at the time. And so I

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started to tell this funny story about how I'm drinking and

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trying to entertain everyone. And I heard a voice pop in my in

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my head, it literally popped in. And it's shut me up. And it

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said, Your purpose is to ignite and inspire people to their

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highest potential. And I literally stopped talking,

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looked around, and it was, I mean, I'm in front of 400

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people. And I'm like, I couldn't say Did anyone hear that? But I

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heard it. But I could tell no one else heard it. So it threw

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me off.

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That's cute. That's cute. Cody, it threw you

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off every voice of God in the middle of a 400 person seminar

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threw you off? Well, I, I can understand wobbled a bit but

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no, right now get me back on my egoic trip, like I

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know what I'm doing here. So you know, source Exactly. So. So I

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say that because that was the initiation of kind of going,

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Okay, wait a minute, there's something greater here. And

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here's my purpose. So that kind of is a rundown of, of the

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initial part of my story. Well,

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that's a Mount Everest kind of experience where

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you hear hear a voice inside your head and have a physical

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experience of a flow of energy going down your body a spark of

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energy. It's like a wake up call, like, you wake up from a

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dream, like, wait a minute, what's going on? It's like shock

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therapy, where you're, you're shocked into awakeness. And so I

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can understand that that is, that's rare. In my experience,

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it's rare. And yet, you don't have to have too many of them to

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get you on the track. And so those kinds of experiences,

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especially being being told, of what your purpose is, the

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younger age, yes, then then the decision making process becomes,

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oh, if you're aligned with your purpose, then of course, I would

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do that. But if you don't have a purpose, then, you know, try

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this, try that, try this. Try that. So boy, what a what, what

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a gift. What a gift. Well, let's continue down the you talked

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about the, the body is the effect, it's not the cause, the

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effect is somewhere else. And, and to me, when I think about

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the effect of the body, I think about the thoughts that I think

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and how the thoughts that I think influenced the condition

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of my mental, physical and emotional body. Is that similar

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to where you go with your, what's, what's the cause of the

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effects?

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Well, we're gonna go there, and we're also gonna go

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beyond because what we're at right now 23. So I basically

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spend the next 17 years you know, become a chiropractor. In

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chiropractic school, I discovered a a work a course a

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program that was a part of, from a man who developed this in

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1931. It was called concept therapy. So in 1931, he had a

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cognition and enlightenment, his name was Dr. Thurman fleet. And

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so in 1931, he basically had that cognitive load of these

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courses and classes to basically describe what awareness is he

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had during those than the seven day enlightenment. So I studied

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those four years, I started teaching them. So when I went to

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chiropractic school for was a four or five years got out of my

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practice. And I studied this guy's work. And I also started

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teaching as I was a youngest teacher. And most of the people

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in this class in this in the teachers were 60 was young.

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They're mostly in their 70s and 80s. Teaching, because the, you

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know, the guy taught people back in the 30s and 40s. So, so it

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was like, I was one of the youngest kids, there are guys.

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And so this work was what really opened up my consciousness. And

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here's why I say this. We discussed about the body and in

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chiropractic, we go, okay, the cause of disease is a pinched

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nerve. So when you block lifeforce, from the brain to the

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new organs, it doesn't get through. And yes, that's, that's

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a truth. That's a truth. It's not the whole truth, though.

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It's a truth. Because you as you just mentioned about thoughts.

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If we start weaving this together, One of the one of the

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interesting piece of this is was his work was based on why if you

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if you, when you adjust someone, I had just you you guys know

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this, I had in my office people heal from breast cancers,

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digestive cancers, sickle cell anemia, AIDS, fibromyalgia,

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multiple sclerosis. I wasn't doing anything except

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chiropractic. But the question is, why would I just someone,

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why would why would their multiple sclerosis get better.

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But most chiropractors aren't getting, you know, those kinds

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of things better. I mean, the average chiropractor fixes

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someone back in headaches, that which is great, that's awesome.

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But what I learned from this gentleman was the effects of

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consciousness upon consciousness. So just to

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explain this, he had a model that described when when more

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than one human get together, there's a way of their

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unconscious minds interacting. And there's a way to connect,

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it's called rapport. So when two people have rapport, you can

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influence each other's unconscious mind or the

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subconscious brain, okay, just to keep it simple. So he had

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trained us to build an image of health, in our mind. So I had

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six clear images, let's say of perfect gestion. And in order to

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under really understand this is you right now and you and your

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listeners, you're digesting food, you're circulating blood,

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which means you have a program for normal digestion, and normal

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circulation in your unconscious mind. That's there. Now, matter

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of fact, none of us know how it works. Yeah, none of us know how

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it works. There's not one doctor in this planet, they can tell

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you how circulation really works to just really feel into this.

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If you and I read every medical textbook, every anatomy

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textbooks, every physiology textbook on the planet, we

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understand 3% about how the body works. I think that's important.

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Understood, you go to the doctor, yeah, you go to the

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doctor, it's important people hear this, you're going to

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someone who's understands a very small percentage of the body.

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But there's someone else in there who understands the whole

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thing. And that's whatever power resides in the subconscious

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mind. Now, chiropractors say that God is resides in there, I

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think that's probably a good assessment. Because who else is

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going to know how to do these amazing things? Right? I don't

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know. I don't know how to do it. So in chiropractic, we say, you

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know, that, when you when you feel into this, if the doctor

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can put attention on on health, it'll amplify a patient's

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subconscious brain cells. So if I focus on perfect digestion,

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it'll amplify the program that's already there. Now that's,

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that's outside of chiropractic. So removing pressure off a nerve

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is fantastic. That's amazing. It's a physical treatment. But

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the doctor can amplify subconscious brain cells, you

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have an added effect of implementing the the program

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that's in there for perfect digestion. Okay, so I say that,

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because that's an addition on top of chiropractic. That's what

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I was doing with people. That's what I learned. And that's what

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I was trained in that is the influence of thought upon

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amongst our, you know, our own body, but thoughts and energy

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were how it impacts other people's bodies. Does that make

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sense?

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You know, I'm, I'm a believer of the there's a form

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of yoga called Raja Yoga. And Raja Yoga is the king yoga. And

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when you look at what does Raja Yoga mean, it has to do with the

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exploration of the inner world, through meditation. And when you

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start to explore the inner world through meditation, the inner

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world is composed of thoughts, and no thought. And so you begin

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to observe the thoughts, which begins to build the muscle of

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the observer and the witness that allows you to create the

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space between you in the event which allows you to respond

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rather than react. And stay still while other people are

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going bonkers. So I understand the power of the mind and and

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that book talked about the the body mind soul. Now soul to me,

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is metaphysical. Body. Yes, body is definitely the physical mind

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is an operation of the physical, you cannot think no one can tell

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you where it is. So it's beyond the physical but it's not

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metaphysical. It's not to beyond the physical or metaphysical is,

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is beyond the mind, which is composed of the thoughts. So

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it's that space on either side of the thoughts. So, so go ahead

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and weave in your understanding of let's go

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there. Yeah, and especially with your level of

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consciousness in the your program and your listeners

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there, but we're able to go there. So I love that I can do

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this. So now if we take this step, you're gonna love this

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story, because this is the next this is the next big moment

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every moment. Okay, let's fast forward. So I've got these

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amazing healing results. I mean, we're getting I have hospitals

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calling me asking me what we're doing because patients are

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healing from sickle cell anemia. The UN AIDS and right. And it's

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incredible. So I'm pretty I still got my ego by the way, I

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didn't get rid of that. So I'm pretty, pretty big on myself

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with what I'm doing here. We got a huge Wellness Center. Well, I

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started hearing you know the little bit of the voice saying,

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hey, it's time for you to get get out of this and go none and

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then right, right, exactly right. So I thought she only got

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one gift in this life. You see, Alan i That was the thing I was

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confused on. So anyway, I'm pretty good. What I'm doing now

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I so I listened for five years go through some pain. I ended up

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getting to sell my chiropractic office, it was awesome to do

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this, okay. And it pushed me into a whole new kind of

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business. I opened a product business on Amazon, which most

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would say isn't really that mindful. It doesn't have any

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spiritual aspects. It does. It didn't. It really didn't.

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There's things in there, but I couldn't figure out why it's

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telling me to do this. So I do I do this. And then I'm making

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great money. Here's where it gets interesting. This is in

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2019. I start getting pretty tired. I'm pretty worn out. I

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started taking some naps throughout the day. And I'm

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getting more and more tired. I'm going man, I'm I'm in November,

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I know the power of my mind. So I can override my body. Okay, so

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I do I override my body. I'm not listening to it anymore. I'm

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overriding going Nope, I have perfect energy. Let me just

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focus on positive things. And I'm pretty positive. You also I

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was not someone that you could you could complain to as well at

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the time. So I get I get more more tired. Now what starts

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happening is I'm getting so tired that I'm sleeping eight

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hours at night and two hours in a day, three hours in a day,

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four hours in a day. I'm starting to get pretty worried.

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Yeah, yeah. And I had made multiple trips to China because

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you source products from China to build these to build these

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products. Okay. So this is the story. I start going to doctors,

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you know, I don't even believe in doctors, right? I judge

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medical doctors I judge the whole system. This is a big

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principle. I've noticed whatever we criticize, we eventually

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become a big principal here go

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ahead and say that again. Say that again? Dr. Cody

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because that's a really a pretty sound

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Yeah. Yeah, yeah, let me say it fully Yeah, whatever

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we criticize we eventually attract in our life becoming

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ourself or breed it in our kids.

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Like like you throw the ball out but it

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bounces back and hit you in the face

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yeah, because energy where people people going oh,

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we're concentration goes energy flows and manifests in physical

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form. But what I didn't realize was if you shove down fear your

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whatever you repress get expressed. Now it may express in

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a way you don't like but I'll get into that principle that's a

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pretty big one. So you bet so here's what happens right? So

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I'm starting to get more and more sick I start going to

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doctors because i There's no all my natural healers can't do

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anything my patent may chiropractors my you know all of

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them. And so long story short, I started doing some stool tests

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and the samples and $35,000 of blood tests. I mean, I'm

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starting to get pretty sick. Now I'm in bed eight hours at night

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and eight hours in a day. Okay. My energy is so bad. I'm

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starting to be poisoned from the inside. I didn't know what was

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going on. But I basically got a parasite in China which by the

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way, I didn't believe in parasites I thought it was all

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in your head so just to hear it here that I created what I

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decided to started becoming Okay. Bacteria, I thought

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bacteria is bullshit. I judge that I said that's on your mind

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that's on your mind. So I get a parasite in China that starts

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eating away at my my nutrients and start becoming malnourished

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from the inside. Okay. Now, I was bit by a tick when I was 17.

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Okay, so limes bacteria Lyme bacteria was released into my

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system now the Lyme bacteria is actually circulating through my

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blood brain barrier in through my circulation and it is

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poisoning my brain. So now I can't think straight like you

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asked me to spell my name. I can't spell my name. But it's

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pretty scary to experience that it's a bit like exploring

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Alzheimer's I would think so. I'm now in bed. I'm it's easier

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to see when I'm not in bed. I'm basically up an hour to two

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hours a day to try to take supplements and eat something

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and this happens I'm in bed for six months. I don't walk for six

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months. I've got a new brand brand new baby she's six months

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old. I don't hold her my mom and dad who are in their in their

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70s Come out and they get to watch me they gotta they gotta

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stay with me so they can so I can take care of my you know my

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family. My dad stays with me Mom saves me which by the way, I

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didn't have a lot of affinity for family that was one of my

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high priorities. I always judged family said families just there

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for blood. It's just not right. Whatever you criticize, you

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eventually attract breeder become so now I've got to rely

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on my family. This goes on for a year and a half, six months

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embed me fast forward to you can't imagine the physical and

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mental pain of the breaking down of your body. When you feel your

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body breaking down. You Feel your organs breaking down. All

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the patients who came in who had problems. I really never had

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problems like this. I started having sympathy. Right? Right. I

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started understanding oh my god, I see what you guys were

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experiencing. But it was on a whole level for me not walking

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for six months when you're an athlete, I was a bodybuilder.

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I'm a public speaker, I'm you know, I'm designed to help other

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people. So here's what happens is the start, I can't go to my

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body anymore. My body's just destroying. So I go into my

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mind, I go, You know what, I got control over my mind. But

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because the bacteria poison my mind, what happens when you lose

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your mind? literally lost my mind? Where do you go? When your

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body doesn't work anymore? And your mind isn't working anymore?

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That's an interesting question. Well, I moved outside of it. And

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I literally watched myself above my body for months, I just sat

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over it. Well, I don't know how that even happened. I just

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watched it. And of course, I'm having conversations with

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whatever entity will talk to me. Jesus Buddha, Allah, I didn't I

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didn't believe in religion, but I talked to anybody at that

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point. All right. And I went through all the metaphysical

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principles, all the rays of the dawn, the concept therapy, the

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Joe Dispenza, the Bruce Lipton, the all of them, the Tony

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Robbins, I went through all the principles I knew, to try to

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figure out what was going on. None of it worked. None of it

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worked. And I can't describe to you the mental pain and the

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emotional pain. The psychological pain is the best

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way to put the spiritual pain of, of thinking that you know

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how to help people. But How funny is it to be the guy that

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can help everyone, but can't help himself. That level of that

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level of hypocrisy, and self condemnation was pretty big.

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Okay. So I feel myself dying. I don't want anyone around.

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Because I was always Mr. Positive, and I wanted people to

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see me as strong. I never showed weak parts of myself, which is a

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little hint to this story. And I didn't want to no one around.

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And I just I didn't, I said, all my friends wouldn't come over to

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need help. And like, I couldn't talk on the phone and get my

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computer. Now interesting enough, I had Amazon business,

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which didn't require my presence. I had one employee who

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ran the whole thing. Had I kept my chiropractic office, I would

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have lost everything. But source or spirit guided me to build a

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business, which I thought was very unspiritual. Right. And

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they right had no purpose. Well, here's the purpose, to go

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through this event, and still provide income for my family. I

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couldn't have I couldn't have thought of that. Right? You see,

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I'm saying right. So right. So this is the moment I think is

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important for you and want you to get the story. I'm I am

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saying things like this, I just want to die. Just let me die.

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It's not about suicide. It was about what's the point of living

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like this. You can't walk? What's the point? I mean, I

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could hear people playing outside I could, I could feel

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that the sun was nice. I could feel people enjoying their

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lives. What's the point of living? These are things I would

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have never said before. I would never said before, because I was

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blocking out dark, negative, I was blocking the other side of

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life. So I finally like, listen, I tried ways to kill myself. I'm

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gonna just be honest. And I started most people could hear

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my verbiage. And they were worried about me. And so people

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started coming over and watching me. And I finally said, Okay,

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well, that's, you know, I remember trying to figure out

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how to jump out of the window, and land on my head. So I break

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my neck, because I just I know how the body works. Right? So

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but then I realized, is it really going to relieve me from

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my spiritual pain by removing my body? And I said, that's, that's

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quite an interesting question there in itself, right? So so I

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go in, and I realized I'm so afraid of death all the things

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the dark energies that I called dark all the things I was afraid

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of were starting to happen. And I finally after there's a

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there's about two weeks in this, but I said, Screw it. I'm gonna

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go in let me just go into these energies. Let me start I felt I

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was resisting all this. Let me just go into the darkness, the

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death the dying the illness, let me go in to the things that I've

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been avoiding. Let me just go in because what else is gonna

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happen if I die, die?

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I don't know how I did this. But if people can resonate with

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resisting something, and you just stop and you allow it in,

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however you do, however, you can translate that in your own

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being. I let this in and I dove in imagine a pool of darkness, a

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pool of dark tar that think you're gonna die and you just

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dive into that son of a gun. Right? When I died in, I moved

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in to what felt like death and dying. I started feeling

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electricity. I started feeling life. When I dove into darkness.

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I started feeling life. All the treatments, all the stuff. I was

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doing multiple IVs oxygen therapy. I mean, I'm not going

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to go through the whole list, a whole 25 to 30 prescriptions and

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medication. None of that stuff did anything. None of it

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anything but When I dove into this darkness, I started filling

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life. I don't know how that how even describe this after six

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months of being in bed to dive in, and you feel life and now my

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I'm very confused. I'm confused because I thought that you

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needed to be positive in life, I thought positivity was a way to

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have a good life. I'm starting to be shown something else. So

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things that sort of flashed through my mind this moment was,

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I had judged so many things in my life for being bad or

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negative. And I started I had to become all these things like I

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mentioned. Well, I wasn't a guy that you could talk to when if

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you want to kill yourself, don't come talk to me. If you were you

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feeling bad about your day, don't come talk to me. Well, now

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I'm the guy that suddenly realize, oh, my gosh, positivity

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is a fantasy. Negativity is a fantasy. Both are illusions.

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Both are illusions. There's a law of polarity, which I

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understood, but I understood it intellectually. Now I'm starting

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to grasp it. Universal Law of Polarity, which I know you're

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familiar with, Allen says that the tides go in, the tides go

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out, the sun comes up, the sun goes down. Human equilibrium

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goes through polarity, there's nothing that doesn't have

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polarity. But what I was doing was trying to be a one sided

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being, right, one sided positive person, right, and cutting out

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the negative. This is what our self development world, much of

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the self development world has been teaching. Well, guess what

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happens when you hold the positive polarity to feel into

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this. I'm Dr. Goldman, and the ultimate image of health. Let me

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help you. Let me help you achieve success, achieve health

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achieve, you know, happiness. So I'm holding the positive poll,

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the longer and harder you hold that poll, the harsher the swing

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to the side, boom. That's where the illness came in. That's why

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it was so harsh. When I allowed this energy, all of it to dive

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in. But I say life started coming back in I don't mean

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positivity, I mean, the energy of life, which is what's in

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between polarities. So if we have positive negative

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illusions, when you collapse the positive, negative and realize

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their illusions, that's when true energy starts coming in.

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And that's when power started coming in. And that's when my

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body started healing again, I was able to, within two weeks,

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notice my first walk or walk to half block. And then that half

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block of stumbling, my feet just kind of shuffling, just very

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slowly. This little old lady with a walker passes me up. And

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I started having this cognition, oh my god, you were judgmental

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of slow people. Now you became a slow person. They see all these

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things that we we judged in our lives. I wanted to say this in a

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strong way. We know that you'll eventually become them. But if

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you can go in and see and the things that you have judged, and

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see how it all has both benefits and drawbacks. Even the you know

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what I mean? Yeah, when you feel oh, yeah, so this moment, this

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Yeah, this moment was a psychedelic moment. Yep. I had

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never done psychedelics. I've never done any drugs in my life.

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But when you take this moment, and I slowly started healing,

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you started coming back and trying to figure out okay, what

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do I do with this now? Right? What do I do with this? I of

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course, my Amazon business is not needed anymore. So that

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slowly started going away. Right? And I so started going,

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Well, what do you want me to do now? And this is where the path

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started taking me was, was starting to coach people. And

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and you know, you probably have seen I have a, it's interesting,

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because you know how I judge the Amazon company. Well, it told me

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the next thing was build a weight loss company and go a

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weight loss. That's so physical. Why would you do that? That's

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just as not spiritual. And then I realized, Oh, my God, when you

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don't have your body, you're not seeking for God. While you're

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seeking for it is fucking relief. Sorry for the cursing,

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but some relief. Right, right. Yeah. And so I realized that

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that's the first step to spirituality is do you have your

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health? It doesn't, I wouldn't ever said that before. But now I

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can say with certainty, say that with certainty, I can say that.

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And so over those years, what's very cool, I'm gonna want to

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want to just first of all, I want to see see if there's

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anything that's coming in your in your in your mind from that

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story, because I want to just give some space and time to

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talk. You're

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the I'm looking down on the earth from the

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International Space Station. And all the lights are off in the

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United States. And when you were talking about it, the flicker of

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light began to appear. And then more and more light began to

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appear. And I look at that light Holy Spirit, kind of like divine

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energy kind of light, which is available when you're able to

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have mental stability and not get polarized by anything.

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Because you don't identify with anything. If you identify with

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something, then you're deep trouble because something's

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going to change. But if you identify with nothing, then you

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are calm in the middle of the chaos. And but most people can't

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give up the some things in order to get to the nothings. And so

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you had the physical razzmatazz of divine energy shaking you up.

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And that's really a gift. Because that just accelerates

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the light that you are, that allows you to shine light,

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brighter into the world, to create these wonderful

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architects of spirituality. Beautiful, beautiful. It's also

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it's time to get get complete here. It's very, very moving

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story, but I want to give you a chance to complete and then

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we'll tell the audience how they can get a hold of you.

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Well, Alan, I want to say thank you, I can feel energy

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speaking inside you. And I feel tears inside as you're talking.

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Because, you know, I feel now what's opened up in media, I can

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feel people so deeply. It doesn't matter if they're across

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the world or right in front of me. And so I can feel you as

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you're talking in your and you understand what I'm saying. And

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that means so much to me. And I want to Yeah, so I just love

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having the conversation. Something that you know, just

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right now as you're talking, I feel tears coming through. And

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this is something that I used to block especially as a as a male.

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But I start I allow this through now. And here's why. In the

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right before I was wanting to kill myself, I found a book

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called The Five Regrets of Dying. Oh, what a horrible

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title. Oh my god, that's so negative. I gotta tell you, this

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book was life changing. I would have never read that before

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until I actually wanted to kill myself. In this book this lady

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describes she spends 30 years in hospice. And she's basically

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with people on their on their deathbed. In their last few

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minutes of what they're what they say and their and their

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regrets in their life. Okay. And if you ever have you read that

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book,

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not say they say the title again, the five, the

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the

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Top Five Regrets of Dying. Yeah. And here's what

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here's what when I this book came to me as I was right before

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and to kill myself. And let me just share just a few ladies.

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This is what started. Yeah, this was started changing me because

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I was someone that was just to reiterate, I was entrepreneur

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focused, I still love business. But I was focused on my

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business. I was focused on my money, my car's my house. But

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what I didn't realize was the things that these people said

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before their deathbed. And I think if people read this, you

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just even read the five things they say, it'll move you the

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first thing. I wish I had the courage to live a life true to

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myself. Not the life others expected of me. There's many

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things in that. There's many things but that's what people

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that's the number one people think people said, I wish I

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lived the life that was true to me. Now what others expected yet

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was social construct said of me, not what not what my mom, my

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dad, not what my husband, but what I wanted, I wish a little

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had the life that lived the life that I wanted. When you have an

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experience of almost dying. I had, I feel like I've got the

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perspective of what it's what it's like to be 9099 102,

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whatever, whatever it is, and you're about to die, and you

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know it. And and you go and you you have perspective, it's

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perspective. So at 4041, I had perspective on the first 41

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years going, you view, we're not tuned in to what was really

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magical in this lifetime. You were tuned into the things that

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were transient. And I started realizing I didn't share love

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with people. Every time I would talk to like I'm talking to you

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and I'm tearing up. But I would shut that down before and I

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wouldn't say what was coming through we stopped the throat

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chakra from communicating what what spirit in me wants to say

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to the Spirit and you that's what came through. The second

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thing is people said I wish I hadn't worked so hard. They go

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that's that's a funny one. That makes sense. I wish and work so

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hard this this simple things. The third thing was I wish I had

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the courage to express my feelings. So like right now in

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this moment, I can tell you with certainty, Alan, I can feel you.

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I can feel your being. I don't feel a difference in age. I

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don't feel a difference in in in who we are as as men. I feel the

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resonance of of what is in me within you. And I have a love

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for you and what you do, and I can say that now with certainty

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but before I couldn't have said that to another man The fourth

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one was, I wish I'd stay in touch with my friends. The

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simplicity of that, the simplicity of that when you feel

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into at 99 or 102, and you're about to leave, to feel the

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simplicity that in whatever age and current time space reality

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someone is to feel the simplicity of that. And then

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number five, I wish I let myself be happier. That was it. None of

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Nobody said I wish I made more money. Nobody said, I wish I had

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more achievements. Nobody said, I wish I got the Range Rover,

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not one person said any of these things. And then I started

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realizing, Oh, the gift to really know what's important.

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And this is what I you know, you mentioned mentioned about how to

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transmit to people. I think in this moment, if people can feel

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and listen what I'm saying, you start telling the people in your

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life, who have been there for you that you love them and tell

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them how you really feel. You don't know the things that you

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say, they may be coming from from source, and the impact we

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have on each other. These are the things we remember, you

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know, the love that we share amongst amongst beings. No one,

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no one really, no one really cared how big your house was.

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So. So that was a defining moment that I think feeling that

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and then moving forward, I now get to coach people. I now have

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people who are going through his experiences who have no one to

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talk to. And I go hey, man, I've been there they go. You've been

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here? Yes. And they go, Yeah, I know what it's like 20 Kill

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yourself. I noticed like, and they go, how could you talk with

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me right now know this? And I go because I am you. Because I've

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been because I let myself dive into it. Because the things

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you're resisting, it's really this incredible source that's

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pushing you towards being something so much more than you

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can imagine. So that first thing you you mentioned just about

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thoughts. I know with certainty now that I'm not a body. I have

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a body. Yes, I know. It's certainly now, right? That I'm

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not a mind yet. But I have a mind You bet. And now, yes, but

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I also know that I am a a timeless spaceless massless

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being that I've had cognitions now, doing this several 1000s of

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times when I say this, coming here, being in this and doing

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this, I can now feel outside of this time and space. And so when

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you talked about coming from the space station and looking down I

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thought man space station like when you go into the in and out

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of time and space, the space station and the earth and planet

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all go away. And you start realizing that this thing is so

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much bigger than our than our finite mind can ever imagine. So

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there's a few things for you Alan.

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I tell you it's a lot of meat on that bone you

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designate you gave us I appreciate I appreciate Cody I

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appreciate your your sharing, sharing sharing the light

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sharing the light with us today. Thank you very very much for

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being on the mindful you podcast. It was a very rich rich

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venture into the the gold mind of love. Very nice. Thank you.

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Still brings tears to my eyes.

Unknown:

Yes, I hope so.

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Alan Carroll is an Educational Psychologist who specializes in Transpersonal Psychology. He founded Alan Carroll & Associates 30 years ago and before that, he was a Senior Sales Training Consultant for 10 years at Digital Equipment Corporation. He has dedicated his life in search of mindfulness tools that can be used by everyone (young and old) to transform their ability to speak at a professional level, as well as, to reduce the psychological suffering caused by the misidentification with our ego and reconnect to the vast transcendent dimension of consciousness that lies just on the other side of the thoughts we think and in between the words we speak.